No, it's -- it got worse. [Nope she can't look up.]

Rolal got me another drink and, silly me, I drank it, and then kept drinking again without another thought. I almost kissed John, mistaking him for Jake, and then I.. I finally found Jake, and I kissed him. [IF SHE COULD HUNCH HER SHOULDERS MORE AND BURY HER FACE IN HER SCARF, SHE WOULD.]

Then when he looked confused to all hell, I ran off.